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It seems that when you are young you are prone to make your own life as hard as possible for youreself .
Sometimes you get a glimpse of that unbiased world ; then you do not understand why you feel or undersatnd something in a certain way . & you want to hold on to that clearer path for yourself but moments later it is gone .that is why they call it a glimpse & you are stuck again making your own life harder .influenced by many thing you think might be important yet could be meaningless.
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Style is subjective whatever this means ,it is a complaceted because it is intertwined with the whole cocept of being 'The best ' so in a situation where this concept is not even truely dicided by yourself how can you be happy.
Music is alot easier that way ( i yet somuch harder ). YOU decide what YOU want .YOU creat .it is YOURS & so unique that no one can take that from you or imitate it exacly the same .
Fashion is all about imitation .This is why we hate trends because no matter if it is flattery or not no one wants what is theirs to be taken away & often you feel the need to abandon what is yours when you should be their to stand by it .
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The progression of a piece .
The shoulderpads of the 80's where something frownd appon for quite along time .So many jackets where abandoned because the shoulderpads where far to larg .Now after Bailmain ,shoulderpads are in the fashionmagazines once again . & everyone is pretending that they have always liked them ,asif it where something new .Then you tell yourself 'well now they are smaller & so i like them now .' ??
i remeber once trying on a nice jacket & thinking 'i would like it without the shoulderpads .'
& so i do not like shoulderpads, i do think they look good but i try to be as uninfluenced by a current trend aspossible because of my opionion before this trend  i know  that i truely do not like shoulderpads; perhaps i will next year but for now this is how it will be .
Often it is sad to see how unopionated people are ,so open to something they never even considered liking .
K